Naptime


 

I’ve been weighed down by some heavy fuckin depression & anxiety issues lately. I feel like I can’t accomplish a single fucking thing, anything that I do is a steaming pile of shit, and it’s making me so tense my body is rebelling against me. Not quite sure how or where that’s going but I know AGB has been stressing me the fuck out. It’s not what I want it to be but I don’t have the time to make it perfect so I spin my wheels and hope it’s enough.

I have so much fucking guilt over it that it affects everything else I do, so I constantly fight myself over whether or not I should shut AGB down. I don’t want to because I love it and I’d hate myself if I did, but then I tell myself maybe it’d be better for my well-being if I pulled the plug. I don’t know if it would or not.

I couldn’t/can’t bring myself to shut it down, but about 2 weeks ago I told myself that I’d put AGB on like a summer hiatus or something. Basically, don’t think about it, don’t do anything with it, just step back, take a deep breath, and wait until something happens. In these past couple of weeks I think I might have felt a little better due in part to trying to keep AGB out of my head, which is why I’m writing this instead of reviewing a new record. I’ve decided the hiatus is real enough to tell you about it and make it a thing.

I’m saying now that I want to come back. My hope is that I’ll figure some shit out or have some realizations or whatever and eventually, at the very least, want to update AGB again because I actually want to and not because I think I need to. I’d still like to do a guide to Hopscotch fest like I did last year because this year’s got some crazy shit in store, but who knows.

When something changes, I’ll let you know. In the meantime, keep well. I’ll see you soon.

13 Responses to “Naptime”

  1. PJB says:

    Enjoy your respite! :)

  2. A.CAROL says:

    Justin , clear your head kick back and RELAX!!! <3

  3. AK says:

    but this is the best music blog. let someone else take over?

    are you still making/ sending t-shirts? i paid for one. . .

  4. antigravitybunny says:

    AK, yeah, the shirts are definitely still happening. In the process of getting them printed up right now.

  5. Dagada says:

    Take good care of yourself. I’ve been in that place and it’s horrid. I wish you well.

    I look forward to your return. I love reading your writing and you’ve introduced me to so much good music.

  6. Ryan says:

    Take it easy, Justin. We love you :)

  7. Peter B. says:

    Take care dude. It’s an awesome blog, but at the end of the day ya gotta do what’s best for you.

  8. BJ Warshaw says:

    Taking a break from doing the thing you love is perfectly healthy. Your blog rules; enjoy the vacation; get back at it only when you’re ready!

  9. Ronny Nibletts says:

    What a fine and honest human being you are. Spend the summer doing stupid things, each more ridiculous than the last

  10. Mark says:

    I’ve found some amazing music via your blog, so thank you for doing what you’ve done thus far. I can relate to this bad stuff – you’ll get it beat… take it easy and enjoy the rest

  11. MS says:

    Your work hasn’t gone unnoticed; take it easy and thank you.

  12. JW says:

    Godspeed, you crazy rabbit.

  13. Matt says:

    Hang in there, man. Speaking for all of your reader/listeners, we love what you do, but we will be okay while you take a break.

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